ill tell you one last time before I go to bed, unlike you, I got shit to do
really I genuinely feel sorry for you. it's clear as day you're miserable, regardless of what you say--you displayed it immediately in your first post LOL
now that you're back to reality, this time I won't tell you to kill yourself.
Instead, try practicing being grateful in the morning when you wake up, grateful for small shit, the fact you woke up, the fact you have food, the internet, the gym people around you. I guarantee you, that bitter attitude and cloud above your head will vanish completely
goodnight virgin, you're gonna make it