>be me >NoFapped for five days after masturbating at least twice daily for months >so horny i have an almost permanent boner >at the kitchen pouring myself some juice >suddenly notice a bag of donuts >idea.sex >take the bag and go to the bathroom >pull out my dick and take one of the donuts out of the bag >youknowwherethisisgoing.fag >start aggresively humping the donut >feels nice, decide to add one more for more realistic feeling >feelsamazingman.cream >one more donut will do the trick >holding the three donuts with both my hands while fucking them like a dog >cum >best orgasm I've ever had >mfw i lost my virginity to a bunch of donuts
Why does the thought of getting a girlfriend and having sex consume my life so much? I almost feel like if I keep ignoring this urge it will go away, but it just gets stronger as the years go on. There was a time when I was consumed with video games and TV. I wasn't even thinking about girls or sex. Little did I know that around that time people were having their first bf/gf and having sex. I heard stories but it was like the thought that I should be doing that stuff too didn't even cross my mind. I my early 20's i tried to find girls but it didn't work out. I'm 30 now.
I just want the sex drive to go away. Why can't I see a beautiful woman like a sports car? It would be nice to have but I'm not gonna snap if I don't get it. It's simply a luxury I can't afford. Seeing sex and relationships as a luxury, I tried getting fit and buying decent clothes, etc to earn it...couldn't find a gf. I asked good ol mom for advice and her answer was....
>Why do you put yourself through that? Why do you even try?
Ive talked to her many times about this but she thinks its not a big deal and I should find something else to focus on if I can't get a woman.
I try to do other shit but I think about porn constantly and fantasize about beautiful women like a teenager...I truly am turning into a weirdo. The older I get the more fucked up it is that I'm a virgin and the more fucked my head gets from it.