I'm 23 and I've never had a job, a gf, or sex. I think something happened when I was 16, I started functioning with the most minimal energy possible. Every day I would wake up with less and less energy. It feels like I blink and years have gone by, my memory has gotten really bad and it's hard for me to remember specific moments in my childhood. I have never spoken to anyone about my problems. I don't use any drugs either, and have never been to a doctor. I think about suicide occaisionally, but I could never put my family through that pain.
I'm really trying to push myself to get a job, any job, but my self confidence is so fucking low. I have an opportunity through Uni to go see a counsellor and I'm really considering it, atleast for my friends and family's sake, I've been a burden on them for too long. Thanks for taking the time to read this, I appreciate it.