Bro, it's schizophrenia. Now I don't think it's necessarily a lifelong problem, it seems to largely have resolved for me. But that's totally what it is. It comes on in late adolescence and tends to ruin your 20s. I had delusions, nightmares, and ultimately a manic-psychotic episode where I found God. It all passed tho, early 30s now and healthy. Don't be embarrassed to go to a doctor, antipsychotics can help with things like hallucinations. The negative symptoms like cleaning you kind of just have to practice your way out of, sorry to say.
Please tell me you don't smoke dudeweed. That can make it a lot worse. Also you're just asking for a bad trip if you take psychedelics.
P.S. check out Kasimirz Dabrowski and 'positive disintegration.'
You'll be ok, WAGMI.