>>31524458>Of course, there was a specific reason.>But she didn’t have to know that.>If you had your way, she’d never find out. The last thing you needed was… whatever she would feel from it.>Pity would be the worst possible outcome.
“The thing is though, when I got here, I had no reason to care about what I did or who I hated. I just lived from one day to another. The strangest thing is, it didn’t take long until I suddenly found myself thinking ahead, preparing for the future. Planning things.”>You flick some of the ash into the snow.>Baconswirl’s eyes are now glued to you. You can feel their burn in your cheek.>Week or so ago, you would have ran from that.>Not this time.>This time you look straight back at her, gazing into those cerulean eyes.>So familiar, yet utterly alien at the same time.
“You can probably guess who I got to blame for that.”>You smile without humor, and the redhead before you nods.>”The Dazzlings.”
“Yeah. So I got plans but no motivation. A bad combination because it made me even more frustrated. Yet, somehow, me and the girls took a little trip to the east. I laid some skeletons to rest, got a little perspective for myself.”>You stretch and feel your shoulder popping faintly.>No longer are they slumped from a heavy burden.
“And now that I’m back, I’ve made a promise to myself. From now on, I’m going to give a damn. I’m going to try. In other words, this time, I’ll put some effort into what I’m doing instead of just doing what is easiest.”>The taste of cheap tobacco fills your mouth.>It strengthens your will.
“So, I won’t hate you anymore. I refuse to let that hate control me anymore, because I know how it ravages one from the inside. Instead, I’ll man up and do what needs to be done. In other words...”>You bow your head. Just an inch.>But enough to be noticed.
“I’m sorry about what happened.”