Well, anon. Maybe you're not so good of a person either. Ever thought this could just be self loathing?
Or, I can just take a ste back and say that you need to patch your relation with the other gender. I'm not sure how though? Make talk to a female family member or someone close that's of the opposite gender.
I'm worried about you, anon. Once you start to ostracise idealistic, fictional females for the same reason you would a real one, it may be an indicator of a deeply ingrained problem on yur psyche.
Who hurt you?