it's the only thing that does truly get to me anymore. I live a fairly easy and happy life, but I can never quite shake the feeling of isolation.
humans are inherently social creatures; concepts like empathy, sympathy and compassion are so deeply ingrained in us that I feel it's impossible to get away from them. we all, on some level, want to be loved; to have someone who cares about us, a person who we would genuinely feel comfortable confiding our deepest thoughts to, and perhaps more importantly someone who felt the same towards us. we also want a active social life; being around friends, going to events and showing off your material possessions all contribute towards your social standing, they make people respect you and want to be around you.
these are things I think everyone has thought about at some point, finding your perfect partner and being popular are two things that are taught from a very young age make a "successful" human being. people strive for these things because we desire them on such a fundamental level, and being deprived of them is genuinely depressing. in effect loneliness, a lack of compassion and attention directed towards you, is being starved of something you as a person need, almost like being hungry of thirsty.
this isn't to say it's all everybody else's fault, personally I do myself no favors by deliberately avoiding any kind of social gathering, but as something we all need people sure do a shit job of displaying these emotions towards others. for me loneliness comes in waves, it's unpredictable both in length and intensity, but I can never quite shake the feeling entirely.
I spent over an hour trying to write this and yet I still don't feel comfortable posting this, but I want to get something out there. perhaps I need to find myself some friends~