hey b its b
whatss going on man are you ok? im not doing anything if you think that im like pretending to be somebody else again in order to talk to you im sorry that i did that in the past i just i did really enjoy your company and being around you but i never felt like i deserved that because i always felt that i was so boring and uninteresting so i think i was scared and if you were to hate somebody i just wanted some excuse for it to not be me it wasnt right for me to do that and you deserved better im sorry that it happened and i can tell you that it isnt a mistake i plan on repeating again
as per where i am right now... i dont know. it isnt like i dont want to talk to you its just that i dont talk to anybody not even my own family. for the longest time i guess i just feel like ive been waiting to die. i feel like a failure to everybody that has ever known me. this is just the reality that ive accepted i just dont think that i can be normal so im trying to embrace what i do have and maybe that can be ok.
either way i hope your doing well friend if you ever need anything just let me know.
ok bye bye so long dont die toodles