I'm in a pickle guys. My entire life I've been held back by social anxiety and bad skin. Haven't had friends in about a decade, never have had a gf, and never have had sex. However, in the past few years I've put a lot of effort into improving my social skills and have fixed my skin. I'm ready to try to find a woman. However, I'm pushing 30 and I honestly don't think I could be happy with a woman who "experimented" in her youth and has had a long string of sexual partners.
There are a few solutions I've thought of:
1. get over it and stop caring
2. experiment myself so I won't be bothered by my own inexperience compared with her experience
3. find a virgin
The first one is off the table. I'm not gonna battle my own psyche just for some roasty so that leaves us with only two options.
I've been memed by 4chan into believing that casual sex and cooming outside of marriage is degeneracy so I don't think two is on the table either. I also find it exhausting to meet new people so sleeping around would probably just end up making me unhappy.
The third one is unlikely due to the fact that any nice woman who isn't hideously ugly or completely broken will have had me pursuing her even if she's a shy introvert. Finding a virginal woman who would make a good partner is highly unlikely. I could join a congregation and meet a younger Christian woman, but I'm not a Chrisitan myself and I feel like that would be disrespectful and put her in a bad position.
So what should I do? I don't want to sleep around, but I also don't want to be with a woman who has had more partners than me. The chances of finding a decent woman who is a virgin and not a Christian seem slim to none.