I'm desperate to find a way out of this hell hole. The colour in my everyday is slowly draining of its colour, and, god forbid I assume wrongly, that you are also in a similar situation.
At the moment, I would either escape from this cumbersome life and shoot towards the stars, burning into white ash, or to straight up die - actually, both options involve dying of some sort, damn it!
Any who, we need to get out of this place - not just you and I, but everyone else on this board right now. I want to be remembered somehow, even if indirectly, for example the 'manga' that I work on and post online. If we're all going to monotonously die as we lived, I would rather bring about death quicker and do something spectacular, than to sit things out and let regret envelope me.
I wish you the best of luck,