>>2430660You won't become schizophrenic and you're not deteriorating or anything. That's the anxiety, and that is going to be the hardest thing for you to admit.
The first part to getting over anxiety is to recognize WHEN you are being irrationally anxious. The second part is to realize that it's irrational, and control it. Now it's a little difficult to realize when your fears are irrational because you are so goddamn convinced that you are right, but honestly, you just need to almost forfeit your rationale (which is actually irrational and corrupted with anxiety, you just refuse to believe it) and give in to the ideas that your psychiatrist/psychologist tells you. The willpower part is difficult, and if it's too difficult, the meds make it doable.
I'm not gonna tell you what I've been put on because I don't want to make you feel like one option is any better than the other. It's completely different for literally everyone.
The first one I was on I metabolized too quickly. The first day I took it my anxiety was actually heightened, but not in an "oh god oh god" kind of way, just more sensitive to things like pins dropping would make me jolt a bit, and I remember being at work and I shook when the soap bubbles lathered on my hands when I was washing them. It was weird mang. Not awful though. They put me on a different one a DAY later.
I've been taking that one ever since. I'd say it works pretty well. Hell, I've even become a bit more confident in myself and started talking to people and making friends.
>I don't wanna be on that shitAntidepressants have come a long way, family. They're pretty damn safe. You will be assigned an SSRI before any other class of antidepressant. Go look up how SSRIs actually work. They just inhibit serotonin reuptake so the serotonin can actually pass through the synapse and get a message across the neuron, wherein depressed/anxious people have trouble getting enough serotonin messages between neurons.
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