>>6850595>>6852073Hello, story of my life.
I've never gotten into pulling my hairs out, however ALL of my life I have picked at scabs or loose skin, popped pimples and sometime around middle school is when I started picking at my cuticles and picking at my lips. It's awful. It looks hideous, hurts, and it's probably one of the most embarrassing things when I'm in public talking to people/meeting people/Talking to co-workers. I pick until I literally can't stand the pain anymore, sometimes my lips will get infected and I experience some of the worst pain. Sometimes are worse than others, and I find I only pick at my lips when they're dry and cracking, so when I manage to keep up on chap-sticking them my lips look completely fine, which is literally astounding that they are not all scared up and crazy looking when I think about the damage that I have done to them all this time.
In Recent years I started picking around the first increase of my fingers, where it's a little dry I can pick off the dead skin forever until it finally gets to the part that's attached to living skin. I try and stop when it gets that far and when it starts hurting and bleeding, but most times it's really not that simple, because there's still some loose skin hanging or sticking out and I literally can not tolerate the knowledge or feeling, so I have to finish picking until all my skin is flat and doesn't stick out like that.
My boyfriend and family hates it, and most of all, I hate it. I know this must sound insane and like a simple fix to someone who doesn't have it and doesn't understand the compulsions, but it's so hard to stop myself. Especially with my lips, since they're on my face and constantly rubbing together I can't ignore that horrible feeling and have to rip it off to feel better.
As I've read others with this condition say, I also get that sense of self satisfaction when I pick and peel. I feel so relieved and some other sick descriptions that I can't quite place right now.
