Why? Why do I still god, mother, fucking, damn relapse to this day?
Because, nothing can beat the primitive urge of reproductive ejaculation. It doesn’t matter what it is: Masturbation, Sex or porn. At this point all I want is semen retention and nirvana, moksha, gnosis, anything to escape this agonizing cycle reincarnation.
Forget about having sex with qt’s or roasties. They are nothing but decaying organic matter that is getting eaten away by entropy that will do nothing but hold you back from your dreams by cucking you with relationships and an imprisoning family life (I don’t want to have kids so they to suffer the same fate I faced). If not, they just want to steal the energy from your seed.
Forget about a healthy relationship with masturbation, you’re doing nothing but wasting your precious energy away and fucking up your testosterone levels.
I don’t need to tell you anything to convince you to quit porn. If you feel like you need to be convinced, get the fuck out of here.
I am lost at this point. I’m even forgetting my own principles that I would write in my journal. I am in this constant state of delirium, torment and self hatred. I don’t know what the fuck I’m doing here in 4chan in the beginning after being clean from it for 1 year.
I just want… Peace of mind.