>>200898788I used to be obsessed with asian girls pre transition. Their perfect makeup, skin, and outfits. They taunted me, lorded over me, mentally endlaved me. I would masturbate furiously, sometimes 10 more more times in one day. And soon i would move on to videos of white women sucking black cock. I was desperate, i felt like i was dying, year after year spent gooning, never even having a woman look my way.
Fast forward to today. My balls are long gone. My body is soft and smooth. I tug on my limp dick but it barely gets hard, i tug and tug but i can't even stay focused. My thoughts automatically turn to men. I now know i will never have sex with a woman. I will never get a womab pregnant, never penetrate a woman.
It makes me feel frustrated, weak, whining and powerless at how all i can do, my only purpose from now on is to serve men. Kneeling at their feet, servicing their cocks and taking their semen inside of me. I can't believe that i've been defeated like this. And when i see hot women kook at me and smirk i recognize the look of triump in their eyes. In the battle beteeen the sexes, they are the conquering warriors now and i am their captive.
People often assume i am larping. I am not. I am trying to interperet my story. I do feel much healthier now because i dont chronically masturbate and dont feel depressed, but my story is unlike almost any other trans story i have heard. Did ANYONE experience something similar?
