>>40875059You basically have two options, surrender to the police or try to hide.
Don't take your life over this, it would be a waste.
If you choose to surrender to the police, disarm yourself and call 911, tell them exactly where you are and that you have placed your gun out of reach. Stay on the phone with the operator until the police arrive and comply with them fully.
If you choose to hide you should also disarm, and dispose of your weapon. Guns clearly are not for you, but you're still a person and have worth.
Once again, living is your only option, and if you wish for God to have mercy on your soul then seeking forgiveness and living a life of good deeds is your way out.