>inb4 attention whoreI am one of those diaper-loving faggots that everyone seems to hate. I just miss that genuine happiness and the feeling of love and innocence from when I was younger. Being the scapegoat of my family and being blamed for pretty much everything when I was younger left a hole that just makes me sad. It probably lead to me being diagnosed with depression (My family has an extensive history of mental illness). Is it bad that I want an escape from the reality in front of me?
This song is comforting:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MAB5W9JGxfUI can easily expect that if anyone does say something to me here that they'll just tell me the usual generic negative response. i.e.: "You're the lowest of the low, you should just kill yourself." , etc.
Everytime I come here I'm reminded of how much of a pathetic loser I am. I am a weakling and I deserve to die. Even those who are closest to me I sense are uncomfortable around me and wish to be rid of me. Maybe if there's something after this life I've been given, I'll be able to be something that makes me happy. For now, however, I'm just going to be pathetic and centering on my imagination. All those trivial problems about love are meaningless, love doesn't exist in the real world anymore, nor does it exist online. It only exists in the mind.
