>>54911258>>54911739I went from crying out of both eyes to just feeling numb.
I'm really not okay. I feel like I just stumbled onto the truth of why I'll never make another person happy. How ultimately I will always fail to be adequete for another person. How all I can really do is love myself.
I have a huge dick. I honestly wonder if I'm just fated to try and knock girls up and pay child support or die trying. I don't even mean that unironically. The most happy women on that forums are divorced and shacked up with somebody else. That's how my father was. Is that what would make everybody the most happy? I just kind of wanted my own kid because I never had father/son experiences. Maybe they're just not for me.
Maybe I should just kill myself and save the world the drama. I probably never would have made it anyways. I'm in pain constantly. Like they were talking about on that forum I have a major disability. That's probably what would make everybody the most happy.
I honestly always dreamed of a happy marriage with a kid. I don't even know what I'm really working so hard to achieve. I'm working really hard. Do I need to find an autist GF for her to not hate me? Will every normal woman really loathe a relationship with me this much?
