No girl ever showed interest in me. 29 years old perma virgin overweight manlet. Shitty hair, shitty skin. Since January I can't stop thinking about suicide. What has been keeping me alive was bad cope shit like games and anime. None of that works anymore. I was saving money to buy an apartment. I finally have enough, fairly good job and carrier. Realize none of that matters. I'm tired of going home to empty and cold rooms with nothing inside. I'm tired of not existing. I'm tired of being castrated by women's disregard to me. I'm tired of walking the streets and seeing couples, sometimes it gets bad enough I cry myself to sleep when I go outside and see couples. I avoid any romance-related content. I don't even derive any joy from anything anymore besides eating and drugging myself. Is this it? Have I simply been selected out of the gene pool and there's absolutely nothing I can do? I don't know what to do anymore, today I spent 30 minutes staring at the wall because I wanted to punch it so hard until I ruined my hands. A guy randomly called out to me and asked if everything was alright, I didn't know what to say so I just gave him a nod and walked away. What the fuck an I even doing alive? How do you guys deal with this?