>>40272905>>40273511I dunno. Last time I tried to draw something very particular (human pose or whatever) I was fucking up badly for hours so I ended up throwing my favourite mug at someones face, smashing it to pieces.
I was mostly concerned about the mug since it was a birthday present made for me exclusively. That being said I might do what you said, but soley from artist frustration + my mad inferiority complex because I can't draw fuck all but when I try I seethe like crazy and I don't know how to apply that anger to drawing. I just give up and hurt people including myself.
It's one of the reasons why this whole thing has been the best/worst thing for me. It's made me feel but fuck me I don't deserve an ounce of feeling. Just let me slave away and rot and be forgotten because I'm not good enough, nor will I ever be.
People that tell me I'm a good person or that I can change I immediate dismiss and soon after cut out of my life, this would include my family also.
