>>39408669I was a bully too.
The internal dynamics of bullies go like this: there's a pecking order of kids who bully others, and you protect your position by tearing other kids down. If you show weakness in front of those above you or mercy to those below you, then you become vulnerable to someone rising up the pecking order and taking over your spot, meaning you get bullied more. Some kids are above the bullies in popularity; others sit below or intermixed with them in popularity, but band together into an alternate hierarchy without bullying; but if you're unaligned, you get bullied, and if you don't want to be on the bottom, you bully others.
For me, by the time I was 14 or so and left the group, I'd been
>deliberately urinated on>deliberately spat on>given a cup of cordial with a human tooth in the bottom>had turpentine thrown into my eyes and been hospitalised>had one of the two bisexual crushes I've had in my life sit on my chest and punch me in the face until I couldn't stand up, after I told him to leave a younger kid alone and shirt-fronted himas well as the usual run of having my pants pulled down, being punched and kicked, having my lunch stolen, graffiti on my things, my books knocked off the table, etc.
I'd also
>overflowed a toilet next to the cubicle a mentally retarded kid was in, while he stood on the bowl and cried>beaten the shit out of the same kid>called a girl names until she refused to come to school>followed a kid around hitting him on the back of the legs with a cricket wicketand done most of the other stuff that happened to me to other people.
When kids get older they one by one realise they don't have to be part of the bullying cycle, and they leave for other groups where they're not locked in constant struggle for status. That's what happened with me. After getting punched in the face until bloody by my crush I fucked off to a bigger group of friends who weren't bullies and just never came back.
Sorry for blogposting.
