>>39687583>>39687769I'm turning 30 in a month. I've had four jobs, two corporate and two more meaningful ones that paid less. Here's a brain dump of random shit.
First up, how much of your opinions are coming from your mood, and how much are coming from real beliefs? From personal experience I feel really negative when my sleep, diet, exercise, sunlight exposure, social life, work-life balance, etc. are bad, or when something bad happens, or sometimes for no reason at all.
Secondly, if I think back to a lot of the works of fiction I used to read/play/watch, most of them didn't have a lot of middle aged or old people. Everyone in Snoot Game who takes part in the actual plotline is a literal 18 year old; Moe/Ripley/Samantha/Spears/etc. are just props for the 18 year olds to play off, not dynamic characters with fleshed-out lives and their own changing needs - which is fine! Being stable enough to help the young is part of the role of adults, but it's not the only thing they do. If you feel there aren't a lot of experiences left for you, it might be because all the media you consume only shows the inner lives of young people. For example, in the Count of Monte Cristo (the book, lel) Edmond Dantes is 19 when he's arrested, mid-thirties when he escapes, late forties when he finally ruins Danglars. You might find different role models and narratives help you understand how middle age and old age are supposed to work.
Thirdly, second chances are great when they happen, but they're not as common as first chances, which are practically infinite and always available. Getting too fixated on the past can stop you taking opportunities in the present.
Idk man, growing up and growing older is hard and confusing, and it never really stops.
