>>53019403Now I can tell this post wanted responses
Idk you, so I can only say how I relate
>i have often trouble communicating>so confused all the time to the point where i have the need to look up on what words mean on google because i forgot>get confused and worried that i picked the wrong word or i forget what the word i wrote down even mean>constantly forget stuff and get concerned i forgot something of grave importanceUsed to be like that, what helped me was identifying and distancing myself from shitty social influences that were making me doubt myself to the point of mental paralysis and breaking down at the drop of a hat. Then I:
>Found friends that supported me and were generally on the same wavelength.Removing special interests or having to explain them to normies made conversation 10x harder, and I was shooting myself in the foot by forcing myself out of my comfort zone before I could build self esteem
>Took mental notes on how others communicated what I wanted toBrought faverot into this by emulating fave. At the time... it was a character who could make small talk, act friendly to strangers, steer the conversation towards what he wanted, and pass as a normie; which I needed to do to get the care and support I needed. Roleplayed him for a while via text, which I'm way better at than speaking. Then mustered up the courage for voice acting here and there. Learned to keep my stims in character while emulating, to mask the autism
>Developed an intuition for contextual nuanceTaking everything by dictionary, hard and fast rules also shot me in the foot. Words are like memes, people adopt them from the way others say it in conversation or on the news and media, and they evolve and mutate that way. There's so many ways to do this or that which can work. Getting stuck on the Approved Method for everything, not letting myself tweak and make it my own, ensured I'd always be lower than 1000 mountain peaks smushed into one intimidating pedestal
