>>2835502>Honestly the depression hole is so deep this time around I don't really TikTok and haven't in a whilefrom my experience with depression it gets different when its turning into a chronic one or at least mine did
at the start it was actually making me feel like everything is goind down and there were no resolution
as i pushed it that way though my education on habit and discipline i sought stronger stimulus to feel anything
at the end i left myself of emotions and then lost my will as well
its paradoxically the worst feelling to not be able to enjoy anything and to behave in such a self destructive way
as im trying all the time to self reflet my own actions it realize it changed my personality for a worse
now im just seeking simple things, trying to show only good and learning to ignore anything bad
i hope one day i will feel my own emotions as strong as before all of this