>>131157458I see.
I didn't realize you had so much bound up in this. I understand that there is nothing more wholesome or good for life in the future than some sacred memory from childhood; a golden starting point before evil set in.
Just remember that nothing, nothing in this world, can unmake those memories, and that the show itself will exist as it has always existed - r34 aside.
Try to focus on the way you felt the first time you saw her: what it was you fell in love with.
Please, don't let despair overcome you.