>>39630169Back in the day i was the only guy in the class at the music school i went to. The group was small, only about 7-8 students in a group. The lack of competition and, well, people made the option 'be a loner with whom no one ever wants to talk to' absolutely impossible.
There was that girl that was always coming way earlier before the beginning of the class. Because of the schedule, i guess. We always had something to talk about, she really liked the music i shared with her, often wanted to show me her progress on playing piano. Once she even shared some kind of story she wrote, i didn't see her talking about it with any of the other students.
Then i broke some of the apparently important bones in my body and spent one half of the year in a hospital and the other one at home. No stable social contact with anyone but my family and some of the teachers. It both fucked up all of my relationships and my mental health. Even now almost the first thing people notice about me is how i'm not even trying to interact with the others, absolutely disappearing until essentially needed.
When i got back, i had a lot of things to catch up to, especially studying. Plus that was a year with some kind of assblasting exams at the default school. I ended up falling asleep in every class at music school i had an opportunity to. I absolutely gave up on music and the only reason i was not kicked out is that it was the last year before graduation at the music school.
I couldn't make myself really talk with anyone in the group because of how much of a shitty student i became. At the improvised prom that we had i finally realized that i didn't have anyone to keep company with. I left after a few minutes.
