>>9168780It's hard to say. Since I was really little I always liked the bad guys in cartoons, and really enjoyed watching the good guys in distress, especially if the characters were cute and helpless. I would get a thrill especially when the hero's love interest or the heroine got captured and tied up by the villains, and they tormented her in some way.
As I got a bit older, I started to realize that I had a weird fascination with violence against women. I didn't quite know that I was into rape yet, but got a weird satisfaction from watching girls/women getting beaten. Then when I would watch rape scenes in movies, or even scenes with the threat of rape, I was even more fascinated by that because it was a new level of suffering and despair. By the time I was 15 I was drawing tied up girls getting beaten and raped at knife point, and one day it just clicked that rape actually really turned me on. I guess being a masochist also helps.
