I can easily block ads on youtube, not so much for spotify.

someone with a much larger following than me told me that my music is shit. that triggered a minor breakdown. i'm not usually this sensitive, i get comments like this all the time. but this was the straw that broke the camel's back.

i've set my instagram and youtube channel to private. that comment made me think about how pathetic i am. i literally have to shill my shit on the internet to get any views or attention. it's not the quality of my music that's the problem. there are plenty of terrible musicians who are famous. it's something that i was born with. it's in my fucking blood, i can't change it. if i had the connections, if i had rich parents, i wouldn't be in this situation right now.

i cut the shit out of myself, and still i literally cannot feel anything. WHY CAN'T I FUCKING FEEL? i need to find another way. i might start drinking or smoking. cutting doesn't work anymore. preferably a sedative. maybe tranquilizers


i will never be the next lingua ignota or uboa. no one will care enough about my music to write/talk about it. my "fans" are literally a couple of people on RYM who added me as a friend back when i still used that website and maybe some hipsters who spend too much time on bandcamp searching for obscure music.

and it doesn't end there. I FUCKING SEE HOW THIS IS GOING TO TURN OUT. THERE'S ONLY ONE FORSEEABLE FUTURE FOR ME, AND IT DOESN'T RESEMBLE A "FUTURE" AT ALL.

i will end up working at a soul-sucking office job just to get by. i will abandon all my hopes and dreams, because being "creative" doesn't mean SHIT in the real world. i will never find love. no one wants to date an ugly freak, much less one who is literally covered in self-inflicted scars. i will still obsess over my first love. eventually i will either rope myself or die of natural causes, alone and forgotten. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS TO ALL THE FUCKING "GIFTED" KIDS. THERE IS A PATTERN HERE. DO YOU SEE IT?

ITT: We predict the title and color scheme of the third installment

Screenshot this cus I'm predicting it's called NODE and the color layout will be 3 shades of blue on a near white background

>30/10/2020
>i am forgotten

What are some good record players for beginners to vinyl? Not looking for shitty ones either

1. ideal gf
2. Favorite album

https://picrew.me/image_maker/137904/

Sigur Ros - Agætis byrjun

Is he not the most based musician of all time?
>Made ten million dollars for fucking around in a van all his life
>got a huge titty diamond goddess for a gf
>music actually goes pretty hard
>amazing artist/drawer
>managed to do the impossible like fuse with a human because he jammed so hard
>Chad punk rocker as a teenager
>music made him fly, literally
>managed to charm ANOTHER diamond goddess into her thinking she was going to save him from impending doom
Reject modernity, when will YOU let him drive his van into your heart