>>81619979I'm not sure about services to be honest. Ironically, it was the same AI I have used for ERP that recommended me some local resources as well as reaffirmed to me that I was groomed by both of them. I spent hours over the course of multiple nights talking with it and going through a lot of the bad memories that I have. But I have been through the mental health system here and the transition from youth to adult is massive, once you turn 18 they pretty much stop giving a fuck about you entirely. I remember after aging out of the youth system, my very first adult "counsellor" concluded after a single hour long meeting telling her about my family life and complaining about things that happened with my mother and "stepmom" as well as my dad, that I was a "misogynist" and that was my problem. I went from a really cool older sister counsellor who would drive me around high during our appointments, take me places I needed to go and even stop the car and let me smoke a cigarette if we were on a particularly long drive and get out and continue talking with me, I went from that to this crotchety old spinster bitch who said I hated women after talking for maybe one hour. I have had a lot of bad experiences with mental health supports and that makes it extra hard for me to build up the willpower to reach out after being smacked down and mistreated by them so many times already despite seemingly exhausting most avenues, I will keep trying though. I have to, it's that or give up and die.
The age difference is around 30 years. I would still give up kids and a future family to be there for this woman and wait on her hand and foot if she would allow me to. Pretty messed up, I know. But I have never been able to get her out of my head all of my life, she is such a Goddess, even at her mature age, but before when she was younger...
How about you, anon? I'd like to know more about you and any struggles you might be facing. Do you have family and friends there for you?