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I'm not sure where else I can post my thoughts, so here we are. I am an oldfag and a recovered porn ex-addict. I began to watch ALOT of cuck porn way back in the late 2007 ish.
The fact that the content was more authentic, not produced, and was shocking to me got me hooked on it. This content was amateur and genuine. Wasnt uncommon for grainy, out of focus vids. Amateur couples and semi-pro like Janb, Janet Mason, etc. There was some big production stuff, but it was very small and niche.
Well, 4-5 years go by, and new popular videos begin to get released by Brothalovers around 2011-2014 ish. They kind of provide the blueprint for cuckoldry; they manage to get everyone into the shot. I think during this time the hotwife and cuckold subreddits go live.
A few more years later and BLACKED hits the scene. At this point, I realized how fucked up this all was, and I finally (mostly) quit all porn. Also how produced, fake, and marketed BLACKED was, I knew something was up. This is when the exposure of the cuck meme began to accelerate immensely and began to be used politically as well. I realized that there could be forces behind the scenes pushing these ideas.
Now, fast forward to today, and this fetish/lifestyle is on the brink of going mainstream, if it hasnt already. With the pandemic forcing people to stay inside, and OnlyFans it's easier than ever to turn your wife into a pornstar lite, the perfect storm. All I can say is that I know for sure there are forces out there vigorously promoting this lifestyle. I find it disturbing because ultimately it is self destructive in its wild hedonism. It is not sustainable in any way and I can't see how families could have children and involve them in this.
I have no sympathy to spare for any of their """victims""". All neurotypicals are hateful bigots with nothing but utter contempt for anyone who lies outside their narrow mold of normalcy. Anyone who doesn't fit into their neurotypical tribe is shunned, spit on, sadistically mocked, and left for dead. As we ruminate upon the all the torturous trials and tribulations we have endured, the cruel injustice and abject hopelessness of our predicament, our complete isolation and detachment from society, our resentment grows and mental health degenerates until we reach a tipping point whereby the hatred and despair can no longer be contained. It must be externalized. Society must pay in blood. We realize we will never be accepted by anyone and we will always be relegated to the periphery of society to suffer in solitude, so what have we to lose? May as well go out with a bang.
Why does today hurt more than others? i've been well, i've taken care of myself, the pain had stopped and i thought it was getting better now, so tell me what makes today different? Suddenly i'm filled with so much dread and fear, it's like when you're deep into a trail in the forest and finally realize you're lost...i miss you, i miss our friendship, i thought it was okay, i thought it'd get better, i can't stop thinking about our lives not including each other anymore though and i just really don't want to live like this i'm scared of the future.
> August > Year nearly over > More /fit/ (dumbbells+jump rope) > Still no girlfriend > Steady Job > Thousands in savings > Jewelery > Still lurking and playing vidya after work
How do I develop my personality. What do I do now?
