>>56772660This is Jay, I got a message from a couple people from last night and they were all very nice and understanding. I also read through this thread and with the exception of a couple strange and baseless comments, I just want to say that I appreciate the support and the kind words. This week has been beyond rough.
To clarify one thing, Ciara and I were engaged and never officially broke up, even after she moved back home from my house. But our relationship was rocky at times, certainly toward the end. Though we actually left on good terms the last time I saw her, with a kiss and an I love you before she went into work. I am thankful for that.
But regardless I have to be honest with myself. It is no surprise to me that she started talking to someone else, because Ciara was a very whimsical girl and certainly had no lack of opportunities. So she told the guy JT that she was single, and they started dating I guess. He is also the one that was there during her overdose. In fact, she overdosed the night before she died also, but he did CPR and put her in the shower. No call to emergency services... the next night, the drug abuse continued and Ciara didnt wake up. Too late, he called 911, and she was DOA.
Despite his neglect I would like to go on the record by saying that I actually really feel for him. That there is a nightmare situation no one should have to endure. But since the victim here was the love of my life and future wife, I am angry and beyond heartbroken. Not only for Ciara but for her family. She adored her little sister.
The funeral, as described above, was a private affair for her family, me, and my mother. I am unsure if there will be an obituary but I think not. Before I said goodbye to her, I sang her a song, a very special one to both of us. Well at least I tried to get through it. And that was the last I saw of Ciara Horan, the girl who I had many adventures with and whom I gave my absolute heart and soul.
