Quoted By: >>57802839
Hello /r9k/, vent here.
So I was wondering what to do with my free time at home, as usual, and I thought it could be a good idea to start drawing manga and shit again. I always thought (and keep thinking), that everything I draw is shit. I can try every single time and never get something neat. So by someone's advice from this board I went to /ic/. Anons there told me: "before even asking for help, read the (whatever the fuck they suggested me, dont remember exactly what it was, neither the word) (it was a guide, that's for sure)"
So after three days of thinking about it, recently an hour ago I checked out the suggested material.
You know what I felt??? I felt hopeless. Just watching the whole bunch of stuff I gotta get through before drawing my beloved weeb trash made me feel so overwhelmed.
I know, I m a lazy ass motherfucker, and I was always one. Nevertheless, what made feel so sad and frustrated was that the whole time I spent watching some random dude videos teaching how to draw my worthless disgusting creation were in vain. If someone could tell me that I firstly needed to acquire an extensive amount of knowledgement before even trying to draw manga, maybe I would have tried to learn it. (cmon, who I m gonna lie, it's obviously I wouldnt do it, cause I m a lazy retarded faggot)
The thing is, it has been a long road of learning unnecessary shit (as I read by what others tell me) before learning the basics that I needed to make my drawings better, and the feels are like "holy shit, I aint coming back. I ve been travelling for months, fuck that, why the fuck I even tried this? How much of an idiot I was that I wasted all this time that it's never coming back again?"
I feel pretty bad right now just thinking about how I've never reached anything in my life that I could be proud of. Not even HS. It just makes me feel like shit every day, every night. I also got no one to talkj about this issues and I feel so alone and poisoned with all this anger and pain..
So I was wondering what to do with my free time at home, as usual, and I thought it could be a good idea to start drawing manga and shit again. I always thought (and keep thinking), that everything I draw is shit. I can try every single time and never get something neat. So by someone's advice from this board I went to /ic/. Anons there told me: "before even asking for help, read the (whatever the fuck they suggested me, dont remember exactly what it was, neither the word) (it was a guide, that's for sure)"
So after three days of thinking about it, recently an hour ago I checked out the suggested material.
You know what I felt??? I felt hopeless. Just watching the whole bunch of stuff I gotta get through before drawing my beloved weeb trash made me feel so overwhelmed.
I know, I m a lazy ass motherfucker, and I was always one. Nevertheless, what made feel so sad and frustrated was that the whole time I spent watching some random dude videos teaching how to draw my worthless disgusting creation were in vain. If someone could tell me that I firstly needed to acquire an extensive amount of knowledgement before even trying to draw manga, maybe I would have tried to learn it. (cmon, who I m gonna lie, it's obviously I wouldnt do it, cause I m a lazy retarded faggot)
The thing is, it has been a long road of learning unnecessary shit (as I read by what others tell me) before learning the basics that I needed to make my drawings better, and the feels are like "holy shit, I aint coming back. I ve been travelling for months, fuck that, why the fuck I even tried this? How much of an idiot I was that I wasted all this time that it's never coming back again?"
I feel pretty bad right now just thinking about how I've never reached anything in my life that I could be proud of. Not even HS. It just makes me feel like shit every day, every night. I also got no one to talkj about this issues and I feel so alone and poisoned with all this anger and pain..
