>>24545038That's true. Honestly I didn't try. I was pretty much on normie way in my 2nd year of high school (I was 15)... then moved out of town (just after having my first and only kisses) and rather shut myself to others during last year of high school (and felt awkward when I did not). Then spent 3 years in the Yuro equivalent of a community college in a class of 5 people. I was orbiting the girl I kissed with that whole time why she moved on with her life, like a pathetic shit.
I thought I was ok with my life but I realized it was just some place in my head that kept telling "it's gonna be better next year" that made me feel that way. Moved at the other side of the country in a normie major (terrible idea). But didn't even try to go to parties... always refused to have a facebook... never tried my best to integrate... never asked a girl out.. almost only talked to people when I was in the Uni... only did things I felt rather comfortable with, and didn't try to fix my mild social anxiety. Kept daydreaming about unrealistic shit to keep me floating.
I moved in another town where I know nobody for my last year of uni after working for 1 year. Thinking I would finally magically find good friends and a gf made me get through that year. Now I'm forcing myself to go to every social event... but I sorta suck... far from autistic but still rather weird. It's 99% too fucking late as I'm 23, I'll work next year, Everyone has friends from their high school years, early uni years, late uni years. I have almost nobody.
I have no fucking idea why it took me that long to wake up. I was a bit unlucky as I ended up in the worse place possible in senior high/uni, but mainly just made so much terrible decisions. I'm baffled it took me that long to wake up while I should have become mad during my first year of uni for being so fucking alone and change. As always I had to wait that it was too late to realized how fucked I was. I try to stay positive as I'm only 23 but it would be lying to ignore that it's very late. I feel like a high functionning virgin robot. Could almost pass as normie, can actually make people laugh (sometimes), but just kept distance with everyone my whole life and I can barely hide that.
To young people who think their lonely or neet life is alright, it's very probably not. Most lonely 25yo+ robots are absolutely miserable. Just do your best and keep trying. If you're still in high school chose your major/uni wisely and just socialize. I knew top loser virgins who did pretty well once in Uni.
