>>73796307>Is there a way to self medicate for this?Probably copious amounts of self arm or use of addictive drugs to fry your brain. Although... Even consider medical castration? Yes, I know that is a wild thing to suggest, but you wouldn't hurt anyone.
>I don't want to tell a psychiatrist this shit because they'll throw me in the looney binHonestly, as someone who struggles with something similar myself, you belong in the loony bin. It's not like they'll keep you there forever, not until you're "cured" or "better". They also don't throw people in mental hospitals just because it is fun, if they believe you are a danger to yourself or psychotic they'll put you there. If they believe you're a danger to others they'll either put you in jail or start "monitoring" you.
It's either that or live your entire life like this, can you take another 20-50 years? It's up to you anon.