>>73802455I have kind of always hated myself tho. I used to hurt myself when younger, although I wasn't truly suicidal. My self hatred did kind of take a sort of backstage in my life for a few years but I now hate myself more than ever. I'm not sure if it's really temporary, even if I get through it now somehow.
I do realize people care. In some ways, I have thought about how it doesn't matter when I'm dead, since you know I won't exist anymore so I can't feel regret or anything. But that feels super selfish of me